You Are the Hero on Your Healing Journey
When you feel knocked down by life, it can feel like everything is happening to you. You may think nothing is fair, or think you’ve tried everything and still feel hopeless or even angry and bitter about the emotional or physical pain you are experiencing. Maybe you want to scream from the rooftop for everyone to hear and understand. I used to think everything was happening to me, I’d wonder why me? Why now, why again, why is life so hard, this isn’t fun, I don’t want to play like this anymore, I’m not strong enough to carry this two-ton sack off my shoulders, why can’t someone just come and take this away?
I just wanted to fill that sac up with helium and send it out up into the sky for the world to handle, that was if I wasn’t so mad at the world for all the challenges it continued to dump into my sac as if I were a trash bag. I may have looked like Santa with rosy cheeks, my out of shape self hunched over from the weight of the world I was carrying, but I was not, I was Mrs. Claus maybe, but little did I know that the two-ton sac was filled with gifts. The universe was sending me messages and signs to do something different so I would attract different results into my life. The angrier I got, the more I would attract these life experiences/ situations into my life to learn and grow from.
My body and life situations were talking to me, but I wasn’t listening. I was too busy trying to be heard and blame. I was afraid of the stillness and quiet, I ran from it as if a mamma bear with cubs was glaring me in the face with her claws ready to attack. The unknown and uncertainty was territory I detested, I would continue to step back into familiar territory, the safe zone, well so I thought. My comfort zone and addiction to certainty were the chains that held me back.
It was sabotaging me from taking steps forward and breaking the cycle that was attracting the same experiences and lessons over and over again. I held the power to break the chains and create a new life beyond insanity, I just didn’t know it, because I felt so powerless. You only know what you know and when the Triple D’s come knocking at your doors such as divorce, death, or disease, it can undoubtedly drop you to your knees from emotional and physical pain that you have never experienced. Any transition, such as an empty nest, or retirement can suddenly leave a void as if the ground beneath you gave out without any warning sign. Although many times the signs are there, I just avoided or ignored them.
Know that you are not alone, there are two options here to stay powerless and to run from the pain or step into your healing journey and discover how to embrace the adventure that uncertainty brings with grace from your true power and potentials. I’d resist and kick and scream causing more harm to myself and those around me, the belief that fighting was the way to receive and achieve what I wanted created breakdown in my body, it caused illness and disease, and was hurting those around me. When we are stressed, so are our children, and when we are calm and balanced we create a safe place for them to just be as well. Children don’t do as we say, they do as they see.
Your journey and adventure await you, all the freedom and peace you desire is on the other side of fear, illness, and the chains holding you back in the so-called comfort zone. When you learn to become comfortable in this discomfort, you experience a whole new world beyond what you could have imagined. There is nothing comfortable about carrying the weight of the world around on your shoulders and sleepwalking through life with chains tied to your past. You have the power to take the next step forward and focus on what you want rather than what you don’t want. A healthy, abundant, adventurous, creative life full of love, passion, and purpose awaits.
I believe in you!
You are loved, and never alone
Love, light, and healing
~Sonya
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